The Lie

Waiting for death,
She made me a request.

Can you take me to my childhood, if only for a minute?
Ofcourse, I will.

It was a lousy attempt.
My heart was weeping, the brain - dead.

I didn't like the outcome.
She told me she loved it.

It was lie - I knew
She didn't wan't to hurt me.

Struggling for life, praying for death, she didn't want to hurt me.
In my mind I said-Mom, I know you lied.

Standing beside her grave, I tell her-
I know, you lied.

Note to Self

Everything has it's place in time.
Don't try and make your destiny, don't even try to find it.
Live like there's no tomorrow.
Everything has it's place in time.

Tears Never Cried

They run through my heart,
The tears I never cried.

They linger in my heart,
Words I never said, of love and forgiveness.

They pierce my heart,
Words I said, bitter and loathesome.

They are lost within me,
The laughters of yore; gifts of life.

They confine me to life,
The airs that go in and out.

They give me reason,
Memories of yesterday, moments just gone by.

They betray me without shame,
The musings of tomowrrow; promises of nothing.

Wish I could turn back time,
To where I never was.
Wish I could stop it from ticking,
To where I was not yet.

- Mairaj Zindran

I'm the king

What does it feel like,
When you want to cry,
But the tears won't roll by.

What does it feel like,
When you wan't to cry,
But there's no shoulder nearby.

What does it feel like,
When you have to choose-
Not from good and evil,
But lesser of two evils.

She asks me - 'Would I like an eco-friendly bag?'
No-I say.
I want an ego-friendly bag,
Something which says-'I'm the king'.

Note to Self

This is the 3rd night in a row that I've not had the time to eat dinner in office.
I'll have to go home to my faithful cup of tea again.

Am I missing something here?
Isn't there more to life than this?
Wouldn't I rather be a motorcycle junkie or a hippie?

Urban Chagrin

The infinite wisdom,
Deserving of the Kingdom,
From a mass of nothing,
Let there BE light.

Feel,what you are,
Alive, then dead, then alive again.
Give me your hand, I want to feel alive.
Give me your life, I want to feel alive.

I searched the mountains, the deep end of the ocean,
For a price tag signed 'God'.
I didn't find any Min-RPs.
Theoretically, Everything is free.

Break the walls down!
I want to feel free,
Feel alive,
Feel dead,
Then alive again.

Then there was man,
The usurper of honesty-
Let there be Plight!

Save me from man-
Save me from myself.
Don't want to die this way,
Let me be free for a day.