The Disowned Calamity

Being to the world,
What the world is to me.
A dysfunctional spirit
A disowned calamity.

Laughing and crying
For I shall come down upon thou
With a wrath that thou shalst never see
With a wrath that thou would never have seen
Whilst you're taken by forbidden pleasure, with amorous sin

Losing myself in your dollops of pity.
Losing myself in your sensual ravines.
Getting no closer to you, just further from myself.

Time and again,
You are my survival
You are my passion
You are my lust
You are my undoing.

I then return to this world
To the slaying of conscience, the sacrifice of virginity
Back to being the dysfunctional spirit, the disowned calamity.

Favourite Movie/TV Quotes

Silence of the Lambs: "Hello Clarise".

Jerry Magurie: "Show me the money!"

The Simpsons: "Excellent!"

The Godfather II: "Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer."

The Godfather: "I'm going to make him an offer he can't refuse."

Jerry Maguire: "You had me at 'Hello'."

Taxi No. 9211: "Pata hai 300 crore mein kitne zero hote hain? Khud kamaya hota toh pata hota."

The Graduate: "Mrs. Robinson, you're trying to seduce me. Aren't you?"

Nostalgia

11 am: Photocopies of material for tomorrows test - Rs. 95
3 pm: New assignment sheets to complete the last assignment - Rs.25
6 pm: The last snack with friends in the canteen - Rs. 20
3 am: Grabbing a smoke with friends (totally forgetting about the test) - Priceless.

Feeling Good Today

I dont know why, but I'm feeling really great today. It's been coming for sometime though... I've had a series of awakenings that has culminated to this very moment. The whole plot is this :

1 - Love yourself.
2 - Love everyone else.
3 - Don't have preconceived notions; be flexible, have an open mind.
4 - Do not centre your life around work.
5 - Do not centre your life around yourself.
6 - Do not centre your life around others.
7 - Do not bother yourselves with what others do; if it could have changed things, it would have happened a long time ago.
8 - Believe in yourself.
9 - ENJOY THE PROCESS, DON'T BOTHER ABOUT RESULTS.
10 - The key to attaining your goals, is not having one.
11 - My measure of success is not by how much I own, but to what extent I can live without what I desire.
12 - Once in a while, splurge on yourself.
13 - I don't like insurance - I prefer feeling invincible.
13a - I want to feel invincible for the rest of my life.
14 - Admire the lovely girls on the billboards.
15 - Soak in every moment; life is beautiful.
16 - Looking forward to bungee jumping some day.
17 - I will restart my workouts in a couple of weeks' time.
18 - Learn a new language.
19 - Never do what you love for a living, it will dilute your love for it.

I'm feeling good today. Muy bueno y muy feliz.

Numbers Define Me

I'm leaving for prayers.
I wear the other footwear,
Lest the new ones be robbed.

I'm leaving for prayers,
I wear the neglected shirt,
I don't want to be begged from.

I'm done with my prayers,
An invalid greets me.
His lips praise the Almighty,
But his hands ask from me.

I contemplate my reflection.
I am not me. No.
I am a student-measured by grades.
I am a pin up-measured by age.
I am a trophy-measured by riches.

I am not me.No.
Numbers define me.
A travesty of me; A plunge in faith.


- Mairaj Zindran

A Chance Encounter

Angela an actress.
5 years, 3 husbands, 2 divorces, a $4m alimony.

Vic a baseball card collector.
The last hot dinner 5 months ago.

The current boyfriend 9 years her junior.
Just signed up for Pulp Fiction 2.

He wrestled in back alleys - $15 guaranteed.
Most spent on baseball cards and broken limbs.

She wrecked his enfield.
Was booked for DUI.

Oh. She wrecked the enfield with him on it.
Ouch another broken rib.

3 months 2 weeks 3days 4 hours.
Time for a courtesy visit - courtesy AA rehab.

She went to him.
Flowers and all.

Her fragrance was Escada.
Floored him like nothing else.

She's now with husband number 4.
Shelved - Pulp Fiction 2.

He's now worth $10000 a fight.
Most spent on Angela the wife.


-Mairaj Zindran

Please

I've just had a moment.
Whether of clarity or darkness, I dont know.

My perspective has changed.
Someday I'll be old.
With fading eyesight, a broken body, a tattered soul.

Pick me when I'm young.
Please.